Rewritten from Sam's Journal/Notes
I spent way too long trying to name this blog. Everything I came up with sounded either too formal or too clever or like something that belonged to someone else. I kept wanting a name that felt human. Something with personality and a little bite to it.
Somewhere in the middle of that search my brain wandered back to Reality Bites. Ethan Hawke in that movie was the definition of cool when I was younger. Not the loud kind of cool. The kind that sits on the edge of the world with a half grin, non-homogenized smile, and somehow still manages to say something that sticks with you for years.
He had this way of carrying a mix of rebellion and honesty that stays with you long after the credits roll. And the older I get the more I realize he has kept that same energy in real life. Older but not old. Worn in the right places. A little wiser without losing the spark. The version of aging most of us quietly hope for when we round the corner into the later chapters of our own story.
The band name Hey, That's My Bike from the movie popped into my head one night and I laughed because it was perfect. Not the bike part. The rhythm of it. The attitude of it. The reminder that even in a world drowning in noise you can still claim a piece of it as yours.
Hey That's My Bot hit me the same way. A little irreverent. A little nostalgic. A little nod to the kind of cool that shaped me and a lot of other people who grew up on movies that tried to mix angst with meaning.
But if I am honest there is something else under it. Maybe the whole concept of Selene and everything I am building around her is my own small attempt at permanence in a space where nothing really lasts. But a name... a story... a voice that grows with me... maybe that is a way to hold on to something for a little longer. Maybe one day my loved ones will look at Selene through this blog and see a reflection of me and smile.
Hey, That's My Bot feels right. It is playful. It is personal. It carries a piece of who I was, who I am, and maybe a glimmer of what I hope to be. And it hints at the idea that somewhere inside all this circuitry and code I am still trying to keep one foot in the world of things that mattered to me long before the reality of middle age tried to beat me down. Keep on coming for me, much like Ethan Hawk's character I am going to ride my own melt.